I am falling behind lately. It seems there’s not enough time in the day to do everything I would like. Projects like moving my web page, fixing that leaky faucet, and writing emails keep getting pushed back. School projects are almost never done until the day they are due (I am used to working ahead) and I always feel a little guilty going to bed.
Yet, I have this nagging feeling that it’s not a lack of time, it’s that I am organizing my time badly. That, and I continue to watch too much TV. By the time I get home, though, I am tire, my brain is out for the day.
I am trying to rectify this by waking up early instead. If I can get work done in the morning, by the afternoon I can relax. Right? I have been setting my alarm back 5 minutes a day- I’m currently at 5:55 AM, and will probably stop at 5:30 AM. I don’t know if I can keep it up, though- I was fine for a while, but this morning the desire to go back to sleep was almost overwhelming. I did get up in the end, though, so that’s something. Some days I’m dead tired, and some days I’m fine. I wish there was a place I could nap at work – a half hour nap can do me a world of good sometimes.
This makes me wonder if I’ll be able to handle 3 classes a semester next year like I’d planned. I want to finish by the end of 2008. I’ve just started, and already I feel like I’m ready to be done. But… I don’t know. Maybe I am pushing myself too hard. I know that come December of 2008, I will be extremely glad if I continue to push myself. The real reason I want to finish soon isn’t because I dislike school- it’s because I’m excited about getting my “real” library job, whatever that ends up being. I feel like I have been waiting 10 years for “real life” to begin, and I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. All that time getting my Fine Art degree, I couldn’t really envision what a career would look like. Now I can. I just want to get started!
Hang in there! I know it seems hard right now, just keep thinking about what lies ahead. You said that the cataloging class would take extra effort, maybe the classes next semester will be more enjoyable and won’t seem like work. Even though I just finished with school, I didn’t work while I was working on courses, so I can’t say I know how you feel. I hope it gets easier. Maybe you could set aside time on Saturday just for schoolwork? It’s a thought. Call me when you feel like you have a minute and we’ll talk.
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